Saturday, November 02, 2013

...i'm still in here...somewhere....

So I was invited to guest-host a scrapbook challenge this weekend at Skrap N' Chat, and looking over my post I noticed my blog link was still in my signature. It's been over 2 years since I've posted here. If you have me on Facebook, you'll probably notice (or not) that I post maybe 2 or 3 times a year, always claiming I'm going to try and post more. It just never happens. I get into this introverted thing where the longer I haven't done something (posted on Facebook, blogged, called someone on the phone), the harder it gets for me to do it. So if you haven't heard from me in ages, chances are I've probably thought about you, and miss you, and am just too socially awkward to do anything about it!

Partially it's the sssllllllllooooooowwwwwness of this laptop I've been using. I just took me an hour to post a scrapbook challenge, mostly because of waiting for pages to load...and all morning to prepare images for it. You may have noticed my last post was about me getting full time overnights. I still have those, and though it's been good financially, it's been a killer on the spare time and with so many creative ideas on the go, I have to pick and choose what to invest my time on. A slow laptop kills my motivation for online activity.

That said, I miss my scrapbook forums. I miss scrapbooking in general. I haven't done much of it since 2011 because I really haven't been in the mood. 2011 may have STARTED well, but it ended pretty lousy with losing my mum to cancer, and it's been hard to get motivated to think about scrapbooking since then. Like how do you reminisce on fond memories when you're feeling so sad...and how do you not let that show through in your layouts? Even if I managed to pull it off, I'd still remember how I felt when I was scrapping them. Take this layout:

Minutes after I finished it, I got a not-so-nice call from work. Now when I look at that layout, it reminds me of that lousy phonecall. I wish I didn't get so emotionally attached to my creative stuff.

Anyway, I'll try to cut off this rant here and say I've thought about blogging again too. The slow laptop is an issue, but maybe...just maybe...I can post like this every few months or so and actually tell people when I update, then who knows? Maybe it'll pick up once I get started. We'll see. Thanks for checking in :)